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[Kid Randomness]
001. Did you wet the bed? ::.	not that i remember, i was actually potty trained real early
002. Did you ever fall asleep on the potty chair?::.	lol, not on the potty chair, i dont remember using one, but i fell asleep on the potty many times when i was little
003. Play with Action Figures/Dolls?::.	Barbies.. i loved my barbies, still sneak in the attic once in awhile to play with them.. but i didnt say that.. shhh
004. Color on the walls?::.	yea.. but mum made us clean it off.. damn white wall..
005. Attempt to help with laundry,dishes, ect.::.	always
006. Dress up in mom/dad/'s clothes? ::.	not much, i slept in my moms shirts all the time tho
007. Ever had to share with a evil sibling? ::.	nope, i was the youngest, but my mom babysat alot of kids and i had to share with all them weather i liked it or not.. many barbies lost there heads because of them *cries*
008. Get addicted to Barney? ::.	nope,i was kinda older when barney came out.. but i loved lamb chops and they had this other show called kids songs or something like all they did was silly songs
009. Always brush your teeth at night? ::.	yup, i had bubble gum tooth paste
010. Believe in Santa/Easter bunny/ Tooth fairy ect. ::.	yea, for the longest time too, till my brother spilled the beans.. i still kinda believe in santa, well, i mean he dont bring presents to everyone, but like he.. never mind
011. Did you ever play "doctor" with a boy/girl? ::.	um.. maybe
012. Where you a good or bad kid with the baby sitter? ::.	i was always good with everyone except my parents
013. Did you always get your way? ::.	no.. blah.. damn playing fair and rules..
014. Glad this is the end of [Kid randomness]? ::.	sorta, thinking of being a kid is fun
.::[ Now a days Randomness ]::.
015. Do you still have a baby sitter? ::.	nope
016. Do you help around the house? ::.	yeah have to
017. Do you have way to many chores? ::.	of course
018. Do you still live with your parents? ::.	yea my mom, not for too much longer tho
019. Do you have any pets? ::.	2 dogs, but there not really mine, there my moms and well blah
020. Do you share a room with anyone? ::.	nope MY room, no peoples allowed
021. Do you like gum? ::.	doesnt everyone?
022. Do you still have any toys from when you were young? ::.	yeah.. there like almost all still in the attic
023. Do you think I am running out of questions? ::.	knowing you i doubt it
024. Do you wear trendy clothes? ::.	nope
025. Do you still go to school? ::.	nope
026. If so what grade? ::.	none
027. Also what time do you have to go to bed? ::.	whenever
028. And get up in the morning? ::.	um, i gotta get up at like 5:30 or 6, but i get to go back to bed
.:: [ Future Randomness ] ::.
030. Are you going to college? ::.	i dunno
031. What career do you want? ::.	i dunno
032. Which career do you NOT want? ::.	i refuse to flip burgers
033. Does your family own it's own business? ::.	nope
034. If so are you going to be in it? ::.	nope
035. Do you want to own your own business? ::.	kinda
036. Do you think you will live to see 2056? ::.	hmm maybe
037. Do you think cloning will be the cool thing in 3000? ::.	lol hope not
038. Are you going to be famous? ::.	nope
039. Would you like a career with animals? ::.	yea
040. Yes sadly I am running out of questions for "the future" ::.	lol thats a surprise
041. Do you watch Futurama? ::.	not really, did a few times tho
042. Do you think there will be flying cars in the far future? ::.	would be cool, but i dont think we'll still be calling them cars
043. If so would you buy one? ::.	if i can hell yeah
[ T.V Randomness ]
044. Do you like cartoons? ::.	who doesnt?
045. Do you watch MTV? ::.	no cable
046. Do you like The Simpsons? ::.	yup yup
047. Fry & Bender are from which show? ::.	Fututama
048. What's the dog on Full House's name? ::.	Comet.. used to love that show when i was little too
049. Do you like any "kiddie" shows such as Blue's Clues ect ::.	some
050. Do you prefer to rent movies or see them in theater? ::.	rent usually, whenever i like actually have money, i think some movies are like a waste of money to see in the theater, not that there bad movies, they jus ... i dunno.. blah
051. Stupidest movie you've seen? ::.	i dunno
052. Funniest movie you've seen? ::.	i dunno
053. Scariest move you've seen? ::.	freddy used to scare the shit outta me when i was little
054. Movie you really want to see? ::.	um, theres alot out now, a series of unfortunate events, spanglish, um i dunno.. oh and i wanna see all the lord of the rings.. yea i still havent seen them, only the first on
055. Show you want off air? ::.	smack down?
056. Show that's gone off air and you want back? ::.	sooo many
057. Have you ever heard of Hee Haw? ::.	heard of it, dont think i ever actually seen it tho
[ Music Randomness ]
058. Do you prefer Rap or Rock? ::.	rock
059. Is there such a thing as Punk Rock? ::.	think so
060. If so an example please. ::.	i dunno
061. What do you think of Joel from Good Charlotte? ::.	i dunno
062. Are you annoyed with me? ::.	sadly no, you never annoy me, prolly cuz i know i annoy you at times too
063. Country music...can yah dig it? ::.	sometimes, gotta be in the mood tho
064. Do you know what Brizzle mean? ::.	nope you wont tell me
065. Does MTV need to play more videos and less shows? ::.	YES!!
066. Does the radio station you listen to overplay songs? ::.	sometimes
067. Should Room Raiders go off air? ::.	ah, its ok, maybe if they replaced it with something better
068. Is LaLa on TRL annoying to you? ::.	havent watched TRL in ages, i miss it, dunno who lala is tho.
069. Are you glad I have to get off the net? ::.	nope
070. And end this survey ? ::.	nah, cuz i think you jus made another one! :-P
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Merry christmas and stuffs everyone!

i hate movies that jus leave ya hanging, but that jus means i need to watch the rest of the movies eh? lord of the rings. the first one. Good movie, had my pretty much kept my attention threw the whole movie, except for the ocasional wondering imagination that puts ones self into the movie, which really is what every film maker goes for. so yea its a good movie altho, still not life dedicating worthy as i stated in my past entry, some people really need to get a life

im watching the news , it came on after the movie. Aparently that new movie The incredibles that looks like a cool childrens movie, has quite a bit of vilence, and some sort of suiside attempt in it. So any parents with young children may want to be prepared to talk to there children about such things, you see i believe children can watch any movie, and it will not as most people say "corrupt"  them in any way, as long as you talk to your children. and i dont jus mean saying "well that was naughty" or something like that. you must discuss the difference between real life and the things they see in movies and on tv. they need to understand that those things are wrong. and are not really happenind, with the exception of the news of course.

anyway, im done preaching now jus kinda spred the word about that movie to people with young children, it is going to be a great movie. and it is rated PG but some parents may want to look into it a bit before taking there children, jus serch for the movie on yahoo or something and you should get some parental links discusing things about the movie, maybe i'll find some for ya later on.

so yea anyway, nothing really happend today, didnt do much, talked to david on the phone played on the net a bit and watched tv, upn mostly, as our cable has been off awhile. im back into the regular tv land, and i dont much miss cable, i guess sumhow i knew it wasnt going to last long, infact im surprised my mom kept it on as long as she did. she says shes going to have it put back on when she gets the money, but im not holding my breath. im gonna go lay down and watch sum tv now. my head hurts a bit, but i tried laying down earlier, from about 3 to 5:30 i just laid there and couldnt sleep so i gave up. altho it did prove a bit restful so maybe i'll be up awhile. i dont know. theres alot i could be doing on the net. but theres like not really one on to talk to so its kinda like blah. ya know? i dunno.  i need to get workin on the guild i started a bit more. its kinda at a stand still now. i dont think and of the people in there now are real neopet players. i mean they play, but not like us. they like go on once in awhile, not every day, i dunno. im done writting, i dun feel like writing nomore.

 

i woke up with a migrain, took sum pills went back  to bed, woke up around 5:30pm the first lord of the rings was on at 7pm, it was cool, until it said to be continued, sucks. i hate that, they'll show the other half tomorrow, im gonna be so pissed if i miss it, its a good movie, i may be able to understand some of the crazy lord of the rings freaks that obsessed with it. but yea its a good movie, altho i still say all them people who have dedicated there lives, either online or off to this movie are cracked. i mean as i said, it was a good movie, but it wasnt like life changing, unless the last half of the movie is like a major change. i dunno. its time to go back to bed, ny head is starting to hurt again, so in a way i guess im glad it was to be continued. off to bed and to annoy david on the phone while he watch leathel weapon 4. lol night.

mom n shawn went at it again last night, he broke the window on the front door again. but today there back together. what a surprise, they need to grow up.

Halloween is over, and lets face it, no one really cares about thanksgiving all that much, i mean yea good food. but christmas.. snow.. family.. snow.. pretty lights.. snow.. prestents.. snow.. candy canes.. and well did i mention snow? i hopw it snows lots this year

i saw this and well thought it was cool, i take no credit,  this was found at http://www.chris.com/ascii/ i hope it looks ok, if not go visit the page and click on christmas

  well it didnt work so jus go check out the website. it was like a 12 days of christmas thing.

i finally took my fan up in the attic and brought my scanner thingy down, but it wont scan Bah, it will print but it wont scan.. figures..

I voted and got a sticker i voted for kerry and he lost.. he won in wisconsin tho, Damn Ohio.

Ive never been afraid of my mother before. Yeah shes done alot of stupid things while she was drunk, but shes never physically hurt me before. Shes gone after me verbally and many emotional attacks, but never physically caused me harm. Last night she hit me, not hard, but enough to leave a mark. She also told me she didnt want me here, well she said no one wanted me here, she told me to leave. So thats what im going to do. im going to pack up my things, and find a place to go, My new years resaloution is now to get the fuck outta here. im sick of fighting a losing battle. i'll prolly wait till david comes back again and go live with him, thats what he says he wants, not sure if its the best idea, but if that dont work out, im either going to talk to my grandmother about staying there (scary) or go visit my aunt in indiana and spend some time with my cousin. i kinda wanna talk to chris about all this, but its like, when i do get to talk to him, i dont wanna bring him down you know? hes got enough to worry about. i didnt wanna leave mom, i know she doesnt mean all the things she says or does, its the addiction talking, but i cant fight this battle alone anymore, Shes an alcoholic, and theres nothing i can do until she sees that its a problem. i cant watch her do this to her self anymore, its like anytime theres hope that shes getting better its like one baby step forward, then 20 giant leaps back. how can i be expected to stay here and fight her alone?  why cant i jus walk out without feeling guilty? chris left, everyone else left. i need to do the same, im sorry mom. i need to have my own life, or atleast what little bits of it i can save.  im outta here. 2 months. i hope.

i missed the past 2 days, i dont really feel like writting, jus kinda feel like doing nothing one min, and doing everything at once the next, its crazy, feel like i been smokin creeper lol

i started a guild on neopets last night, i think its gonna be cool, especially if we keep kinda moniter the members. i dunno, had a major migrain the other day and had to miss lindas party, which really sucked ass, i swear i always get a head ache when theres something i wanna do, and if its not a headache its something, either i'll jus be sick, or something else will come up. my luck jus really fuckin sucks, im surprised i wasnt sick when david was here, i dunno, maybe thats saying something, bah, i dun know what else to write so im outta here, i'll try and write more tonight.

i missed the past 2 days, i dont really feel like writting, jus kinda feel like doing nothing one min, and doing everything at once the next, its crazy, feel like i been smokin creeper lol

i started a guild on neopets last night, i think its gonna be cool, especially if we keep kinda moniter the members. i dunno, had a major migrain the other day and had to miss lindas party, which really sucked ass, i swear i always get a head ache when theres something i wanna do, and if its not a headache its something, either i'll jus be sick, or something else will come up. my luck jus really fuckin sucks, im surprised i wasnt sick when david was here, i dunno, maybe thats saying something, bah, i dun know what else to write so im outta here, i'll try and write more tonight.

lol, i like totally forgot about going in the attic yesterday, i went to bed um, um, some time, and slept till umm.. later. i made some more ruben sandwhiches today, my mom said i make the best rubens shes ever had and i know that sounds really corny and all, but it was a compliment, from my mom.. i was all like woah! very cool. i played aroung on neopets most of the night, doing, nothing.. i mean like really doing nothing. i chated on the boards a little, and i read the news, and played around with my fonts.. i shoulda been playing games or something, but i jus couldnt be bothered,  so dustin aka  ace from the yahoo chat room gave me a little over 3k which was cool, cuz i literaly had 160 np to my name, so i took those np and got some scratch cards.. and turned it into 12k with alot of RSing luck so that was cool.  Aparently mom and shawn are breaking up , well so they say.. again. im getting sick of listening to them go back and forth, they need to either get married, or never speak to each other again, cuz now its like theyre fighting one day, and all happy and jolly the next. soooo annoying.

i kinda sorta decorated for halloween, i wrote happy halloween on my window in old green glow in the dark fabric paint kinda cool, it doesnt really glow, cuz theres to much light from the neighbors porch light. but when my black light is on it glows pretty good, looks kinda like slime. i shoulda made it like drip down a little more,  maybe i'll add to it later if i get that bored again.

im high, and i feel like writting.. but when i sit to write, i go blank.. i soooo hate that. 

oh, before i forget, this is for danielle... i found it on a website while looking at some siggy pets, they said it was posted by babyblue_120 on the avatar message boards

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neway.. imma go watch tv and see if i can crash awhile..

 

 

im gonna post some pictures and stuff tomorrow, mostly cuz i havent had much to write about lately, not that i ever do,  but bleh, i didnt do anything today, i pretty much slept all day and watched tv, and talked to david, this is pretty much my life, exciting huh? oh of course then theres the thrill of my day dealing with my brother -extreme sarcasim- today i asked him to walk to the store for me, not the corner store, but food mart which is about um, 4 maybe 6 blocks away, i sent him for a can of corn beef, a can of sour krout and a 3 liter bottle of soda,  they have 3 liters of faygo for 1$ and well you gotta love that,  so anyway, he comes back with a can of corn beef, 2 cans of sour krout, and a 2 liter bottle of soda, its not a huge deal, its just annoying, i ask him all the time if he wants me to write a list, and he says no, he'll remember, but then he comes back with something different like today.

bleh, anyways, aparently david talk to his parents a bit more about me coming to visit down there, and he says that it would be better if it was like jus for a week, which would mean i would have to take a bus or something atleast one way, cuz it wouldnt really make sense for him to drive up here, pick me up, drive back, then drive back up, and drop me off, 16 hours each time, 16+16= 32 hours of driving on each trip, 64 hours total, not to mention gas and money and time off work and school.. problem there tho is, i really really wouldnt wanna take a buss alone, cuz well i never been on one before. and thats like a  uber long ride, and theres prolly like 2 or 3 transfers and well, yea, i jus dont wanna do it alone, and well it wouldnt make much sense for him to do it with me, or for anyone else to go, cuz well no one else would. i dunno, so yea, bleh, back to i dunnos.

so um plan for tomorrow is to clean up my room a bit, my desk anyways, and take my fan up to the attic, and bring my scanner/printer/copier thing down, its still up there from when i had my bedroom up there, well the week i had my bedroom up there this lasy july it didnt work out quite the way i wanted it to, it was like waay to hot up there in summer without a good fan -we dont have air conditioning lol- and at the time one of my moms friends was borrowing our big fan. not to mention there were like these big ol' bugs up there at night, they were like some kind of flying beetle or something, i dunno, they were big and ugly, i really really dont like bugs, infact sometimes talking about or seeing them will give me horrid nasty dreams, bleh, the worst one being that my pillow was like made of bugs, it was soooo nasty bleh.. i hate bugs, not all bugs ofcourse, lightening bugs dont bother me, and im quite fond of dragonflys and a few others, well, prolly mostly bugs that never really get into the house, i mean you never see a dragonfly in ur house, so maybe thats why i like them bugs outside dont bother me unless there like on me, or near me. Bugs jus shouldnt be in my house.. they come in my house, im sorry, it sounds cruel, but if there in my house, and i see them, odds are, there going to die.

bleh.. gotta get off the subject of bugs, i like cats, cats eat bugs  lol well my old kitty did anyway, Newpy.. i'll post a picture of her tomorrow, if i remember to get my scanner from the attic before it gets dark.  she would come kill bugs for me if i told her where they were, but the problem with that was.. after she killed them she ate them  ewww.

i got this cool lil brush thing from walgreens when david was here, its cool, its small, looks kinda like a makeup compact, but its got a mirror and a fold up brush inside,  so it like fits in ur pocket real easy, cuz well, i have long hair, that is a pain in the ass, i always leave it down, cuz i think it looks best down, i havent really found any real hair style that i like. but anyway my i would never carry a purse, and a regular brush fits in my pockets, but its like huge.. bleh so anyway, imma take some piccys of it now. brb.. well.. lol you wont know ive been gone

so here they are..

And some pics of me, cuz i was bored..

lol.. i said i was bored..

 

So much has happend, and ive no idea where to start, this last week was great. david came on saturday, well sunday morning really, about 4:30 am,  and we went to bed right after he came and snuggled all morning, it felt so good to be held again - god i miss him - he left last night, he was supposed to leave at like 9 but he didnt get outta here till late, partially my fault but i couldnt help it, i didnt want him to go, you have any idea how hard it is to watch the person you love packing there bags to leave, it took all i had not to cry, it was raining when he left, i walked him out to his car, we said our goodbyes, and i went to my room to cry myself to sleep. he called a couple times from the road, he got home around 5pm today, to sleep an hour or two before hes gotta go to work.

i miss him sooo much, i wish i coulda gone with him, his parents dont want us staying there tho, cuz were not married and all, its not proper.. i love my mom, for not being proper lol, im so glad she dont care if he stays here. but anyways, now he says hes gonna look for an apartment or something, so the next time he comes i can go with him. i cant wait till he comes back, prolly not going to untill christmas.. thats soo far away. but we'll manage im sure, we've waited this long, whats a few more months right? who am i kidding, its an eternity, baaah

anyway, im gonna go try to sleep some more, my bed feels so big now, without someone there to cuddle with.

night.

Today i feel pretty good, i got my laundry done.. my room on the other hand.. well i was cleaning, and i found some jeans one of my moms friends gave me a while ago cuz they were too short on them, yea im short - bite me.  well when they gave them to me they were too small but now they fit a lil snugger than i usually waer my jeans but they fit like there ment to, so im all like woohoo! im not usually all that worried about my weight, i mean i know im over weight, but i never like really like dwell on it, its jus like yea im fat so what.. but the other day i was thinking i gained some weight and now its like yay.. lmao this has to be the stupidest conversation ive had with myself - when i write i call it a conversation with myself, mostly cuz i have a tendency to ask a question and aswer it or i'll jus start typing all the stupid thoughts that pop in my head, usually i go back and delete the random thoughts and stuff, but this is my diary, or journal what ever you want to call it, so i think it should kinda be jus whatever, pls i really need to start writing again, and this is the best way to do it, if i do it for awhile im thinking i should be able to start writting stories again, i used to write great stories, everyone liked them, and they keep askin me for one, and its like i got nuthin, absolutely nothing, and what pisses me off the most, is when i lay in bed at night trying to sleep, i'll think up this great story, then i get a note book and its all gone, jus gone.

Happy Sweetest Day everyone, me and my Friend liz were talking about getting flowers on holidays, and we decided that everyone likes getting flowers, hell i even know a few guys that have admitted theyve gotten flowers and they liked it. Even if your one of those people who are like thats corney and the holidays are invented by card companies.. You know you still like getting flowers, and if you think its corny, thats like part of the reason why you like it, cuz s/he was corny enough to do it, and s/he thought of you,

anyway, we went on to talk about sweetest day, and realized, very few people actually know what its about, so i got to surfin, and i found this site - http://www.theromantic.com/sweetestday.htm it tells a bit about the holiday, which is sorta interesting, but surfing further into the i found some stories.. great stories, and im sure you all are like.. not only does she expect us to read her diary, now she expects us to go see these links.. well yea i do, its worth it, especially for you guys out there tryin to get sum :P

so heres the main link to the stories http://www.theromantic.com/stories/sweetestday/main.htm 

theres 3 stories there, the first one was great, not only is it a good story, but its very well written.. a small quote from the story.. " The house smelled like heaven with all the spicy aromas and it was warm from the heat of the oven and it just felt the way love should feel...warm, secure, cozy... " i love that, its put so perfectly. It reminds me of the way our house used to be, when i was little and to innocent to know the problems with my little world, its the feeling that makes me want to be a  mom, being able to give my children that feeling, that beautiful feeling.  The second story was jus kinda bleh, if you wanna read it go for it, its short so its not a total waste of time. The Third story.. was great, a man wrote it about a wondeful surprise he planed for his wife, who i have to say, may just be one of the luckiest women in the world. Its truely worth reading, again, especially for the guys out there :P altho i dont think any actually read my diary

Davids on his way, should be here around 6 in the morning, debating weather i wanna wait up or not.  I was really tired before but i showered so now im pretty awake altho it prolly wont last to long unless i keep myself entertained, im sure  if i went to lay down now i prolly could sleep, but i think i'll wait up so i can sleep with him when he gets here, im sure hes gonna be tired, hes been driving all day.

i think ive run out of things to write about... hmm.. oh, i hit 600k on neopets this week, im sooo happy, for anyone who doesnt know what neopets are, Remember those little keychain pets? its kinda the same idea, but 100 times better, theres over 150 games to play and message boards, and well, you should really check it out, Just Click on one of the images below and sign up, its free and a fairly quick sign up. my name on there is Angel4335. so when you sign up you can send me a message on there and i'll help ya out a bit.

lol, ok i think ive done enough advertizing im off to watch the big cats diary.

i didnt really slep much yesterday, i jus kinda procrastinated all day, i wanted to clean my room and do my laundry, and shower and stuff.. but.. i was tired, but i when ever i went to lay down i'd be wide awake, which is a fimilar happening for me. i watched sum tv, listened to radio disney some more, sucks tho, you gotta be 14 or under to win anything off them, they have alot of contests, where were they when i was younger?  so yea. anyone under 14 should go listen to it once in awhile. Davids crabbyness the other  night was due to drunks at the bar, he doesnt drink or smoke, and hes said before he dont like drunks.. but i dont think hes ever truely had to deal with someone that was truely drunk and out of control, infact alot of people havent, even tho they think they have. They dont know that theres different kinds of drunk people, and im not jus talkin the happy drunk and the clingy drunk and the whiny drunk.. theres jus soo much beyond that.  anyways, makes me wonder why he got a job at the bar, hes a courtesy Driver there, which would be a great job, if ur used to working with drunks, or have alot of patience, its about the same as driving a special needs van. altho ods are the special needs van is easier.

Today, davids supposed to be coming, hes prolly still sleeping now. but should be here either Tonight or tomorrow morning, its a 16 hour drive. i need to clean my room a bit now, which isnt really that dirty, its jus not very organized  lol, and theres laundry all over the floor.  And i cant do laundry till my mom gets home from work, cuz i told her yesterday and the day before that i needed to do laundry.. so of course shes gotta put some in.. 

anyway, i cant really think of anything else to write about, i'll prolly write later, but if i dont im sorry, i may not be all that interested in writting the next week, david being here and all, no to mention i havent showed this to him yet not sure if i should or not. i mean he would prolly like to read it, but i dunno. i guess he can, i mean.. bleh i dunno, if he finds it then he finds it. theres a link on my desktop lol but theres alot of icons on there so he may see it and he may not

Anyways. Bye for now.

i feel asleep maybe around 2pm or so, slept all afternoon.. and still tired. my mom actually made me some soup which is like amazing, not that pouring water into a  noodle cup is hard but she never makes me anything. the only reason she did is cuz shes like half drunk but well shes like always drunk so bleh.  i wish i was drunk right now, id prolly feel alot better, sucks, well i could get drunk. but all i have is brandy and i dun like it without some cola. 

  i cant wait till i get my radio.. you see we sent in our Newport or Goods points, whatever you want to call them, and i ordered this radio imma find a piccy of it..... here ya go

and the website - http://www.fisherav.com/slim_1800.htm is ya wanna read about it. its nothing uber cool, but i think its cool, i mean its not a huge stero system, but its better than any radio i ever had, and better than the radio i have now, which is none, you see my old radio died, when it was thrown against a wall by my brother it wasnt anything special, i won it in 6th grade. well i didnt really win it, you see we had this thing in jr high called tiger bucks  (the tiger was our mascot) so anyway, you do something good you get some tiger bucks, get good attendence, an A on a important test, or on ur report card, did something for a teacher, anything good, you got tiger bucks, And there were all kinds of things you could buy with them, cheap things, like cheap jewelry that was like garentted to turn it arm, finger or neck green, there were a bunch of school supplies, and gym clothes, and school t shirts, all kinds of little crap, then there was one 13in TV and a radio, well, i already had a tv in my room, so i went for the radio and my friend got the tv, we saved all year for them it was cool, lol, it was funny, the teachers were all worried about us carring them home, thought someone would jump us for them, i live about a block from that school, so Jack, the janitor walked me home, he was cool, if he knew you, hed give you $5 if you got a gpa of 3.0 or higher, it was cool.  anyway, i cant believe how long its been since i had a radio, i used to use my brothers sterio all the time, but its a pain to move, its not heavy, jus bulky so its now stationed in the kitchen on top of the fridge. I been using my computer as a radio, or now we have directTV so i been listening to the Music Choice channels, i like the Disney Radio one, they play alot of older songs, but they repeat some songs alot, they should make some picture or something, on my reciver box, the music choice channels are jus a black background with a little bar at the bottem that says the name of the song and stuff, my moms box says the name of the song and album and stuff accross the entire screen, and the background changes colors. i cant really think of anything to talk about, so im talking about stupid stuffs i didnt really do anything today, watched a movie on lifetime called before women had wings, it was a good movie, its about this women with 2 daughters and a Grown son, and the father used to drink alot and beat the mom, then the youngest daughter 'Bird' saw him one time and he went off and killed himself, then the mom and the 2 girls, moved away and lived in this trailor hotel, and the mom started drinking alot more, and she started beating the girls the way the dad used to beat her, so Miss Zora, the old wise black lady, played by Oprah Winfrey, helps them Which in turn helps Miss Zora to realize she needs to patch things up with her own daughter.  Julia Stiles plays the older sister, she doesnt really have a hug role as the movie is mostly about Bird, the mom and miss zora, but i love Julia Stiles, shes my favorite actress, my favorite movie i think was save the last dance. Ever feel like writing, but dont know what to write about? todays the 14th, mine and davids anniversary i guess, ive known him for almost a year now. in a way it seems longer, but than i can still remember when we met, in a Yahoo! teen pregnancy chat room , and no i wasnt pregnant i was bored and depressed so i was surfin the teen rooms lookin for a room where people were talking about something other than X rated role playing games, so anyways, he was in there talkin on the mic and i liked his voice. it was comforting in some odd way. he was in there chatting with two chicks, um, lindy and rose, or dragon or something, i dont remember. but the 4 of us left that room and went to another, then me and him started talkin on messenger and talked forever and well before i knew it he came to visit on his spring break we went to the mall and took these pictures in one of those little picture booth thingys, which was cool cuz i never did that before... i was nervous as hell when he first came, he arrived real late at night, which was prolly a good thing, cuz we pretty much went right to bed, and the next day i wasnt as nervous. he came again in august, and hes supposed to come again next week, he wants me to go home with him , and well ive already posted some of my thoughts on that the other day. he should be home from work now... imma send him a text message to his phone so he'll call me  its cool i can send an email to his phone like a text message, cuz i dont have a cell phone  ... message sent.. ...waiting for response...  .....waiting...   yay ..new email.. "I LOVE YOU TOO, NEED SOME TIME BABY, REALLY BAD NIGHT ( I REALLY NEED SOME SLEEP, N I GOT THAT TEST TOMARROW" hmmmm.. ok so maybe hes not gonna call    ...new message sent... ...waiting for response.... ..new email.. "JUST LET THA FUCKIN BASTERDS GET TO ME" .. new message sent.. ...waiting for response.... ...Gotta Pee... ..New email... "U DO NOT WANT 2 TALK 2 ME NOW!" ...new message sent... ...waiting for response.... ..new email.. "I HAUE TO SLEEP BABY? I CANT REMEMBER WHEN I SLEPT LAST?" ...new message sent... ...waiting for response.... ..new email.. "I'D JUST BITCH. REALLY NEED SLEEP, IF U CAN CALL ME FOR SCHOOL?" ...new message sent... ...waiting for response.... ..new email..

"LOVE YOU TOO" hmmm.. ...new message sent... ...waiting for response.... ..Yay Phone call.. Night all

http://community.sparknotes.com/gender/  my results LMAO ..

 

i took this test.. http://community.sparknotes.com/person/ and these were my results...

You are an ACCOUNTANT (SICT)— reserved, meticulous, and dependable. You aren't exactly the life of the party, but you do have fun, and the people close to you really do love you.

There are basically two kinds of accountants, and you most likely fit into one of the two categories:

• male
• female

Seriously: accountants are good at whatever they do. They can always be trusted, especially by their friends. They almost never cheat or steal. (Some real-life accountants do, however, they are probably Judges (DICT)). You probably have a wonderful relationship with your family.

Mostly true i suppose, except for that very last sentance, my relationship with my family is far from wonderful

i jus figured out how to add things to where it said mood and music and stuff, so i decided to add a featured site, so every day i'll add a site, either something funny i seen or read or like todays link will be a game. i dont know if im gonna be able to get the link to work, so you might have to copy and paste it.

todays link is a game called Tower blaster, its cool, its like a a pizzle thing, i like it, check it out sumtime.

 

 

David called after work, and we talked all night and this morning, im getting  sick which really sucks ass, i had to do a breathing treatment while i was on the phone with him, and i asked him if he wanted to call back later cuz the machine thingy is loud and he said it didnt matter which is cool, cuz he dont know it , but them breathing treatments kinda scare the shit outta me, they make my heart beat a million miles an hour and i Shake like someone coming off of heroin,  so he stayed on the phone with me and read outta one of his School books while i was taking the treatment, which was really cool of him. then we talked and stuff till 1pm, when he had to go pay some bills. he wants me to move down to oklahoma with him and get a job and stuff, which i dunno, i might be cool, but i jus, i mean when we first started talking about it, i was gonna come down there and visit for like a month, now its like move in with him or dont go. and even if i did go hes got like nowhere to put me, his parents dont want me staying there cuz were not married, which i think is kinda stupid, but thats jus the way i was raised and the way he was raised. so if i say im gonna come he plans on getting in aparentment between now and Saturday. which i think is like impossible. not to mention paying for it.  i dunno. i think he gets mad at me cuz he keeps asking me if i wanna come and i say i dunno. and its true, i dont know, i mean i kinda wanna, but i dont, i mean my moms like really fucked up and i dont think he truely understands that, or if i even want him to understand that.

anyway, i forgot to write yesterday but i didnt really do much, my brother Chris Emailed me, chris got married this last year and they got a baby due in april, on april fools day hes in the army and was sent to iraq last month.  i been meaning to email him, his wife gave me his email adress when she called a few weeks ago and i jus never got to write, i guess i didnt know what to write, im glad he wrote me first, i hate being the first one to write an email, or send a letter to someone, its like i never know what to talk about or how to put things, but when someone else writes first its like they kinda set the tone, lets ya know weather you gotta write about serious stuff, or if ur jua kinda talkin about whatever shit comes to mind, and weather you gotta type properly, or if you can jus type like this. i mean, like the difference between writting to ur great aunt mima or to the chick you met in a chat room last night.

so yea anyway, ive got nothin better to write about now so bleh i guess.

yes so this is my first entry, iv no idea what to write, i pretty much slept all day today, ive not been feeling too good lately. which sucks cuz my mom was like really sick last week, and i hope i dont get as sick as she was, i dunno, i miss david, i talked to him this morning, and the battery  on his phone died and he like never called me back, i sent him messages and stuff and he didnt reply which means hes prolly sleeping or hes gonna say he was busy and didnt check his messages or something, i dunno, its stupid really, that it bothers me so much, it shouldnt, but it does.

Right now im watching that show on TLC Called for better or for worse. that would be kinda cool to do, but if i left my wedding up to my family id prolly end up with a huge pink dress  and some huge ceramony.  anyway, on this show i think its the grooms mother or something, i dunno, she wants to make this huge triditional wedding cake and everyone else wants to make this lactose free cake cuz the bride is cant eat lactose, and the old lady got all bitchy saying how can you have a wedding without this kinda cake and all that shit, and one of the people were like well how are you gonna make a wedding cake that the bride and groom cant even eat? and shes like the cake is for the guests..  so anyway the old lady said she wasnt gonna help with the cake at all which i think is bogus but anyway.. ive no idea what this has to do with anything but im bored so im talking about crap  i think i like theme weddings better, they did this one, the first time i ever seen this show it was like a gypsy type thing, and they like filled the room with pillows for all the guests to sit on it looked all comfy.. that would be soo cool to like have a room in ur house jus full of all different kinds of fluffy pillows, you could jus like walk into the room and flop on the floor anywhere. i think it would be soo cool to totally design my own house, and decorate it all crazy but if i did that it would cost like millions i think id be satisfied with jus havin my own house now. im soo sick of living with my mom, shes so cought up in herself and her own entertainment. i mean its like she can go blow her entire pay check in a bar but i cant ask her for $5 i really need to jus say fuck it and get a job. but id have to like take take a hour bus ride to get any good job. and well theres alot of reasons i dont wanna do that while living here, maybe i'll get gutsy in some future entry and spill my lifes story but well i wouldnt count on it

 

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